Its been a little while since I wrote in here, so I thought that I had better give whoever is interested, an update. I have now had my current fill for the last 2.5 wks, the doctor put in another .3ml, taking me to a grand total of 5.6ml. (The average being 5.4ml), and WOW what a couple weeks its been. To be short, its been horrible. I haven't been able to eat breakfast, without pain, so that gets bypassed. Lunch lately has been the same (zilch) and its not until around 4pm that I start getting hungry. Just the other day I realised at 3.30pm that I had not eaten all day, yay my focus is not on my next meal anymore, but not so good for the kids that their mum forgot about their lunch (oops!). I would also like to make a complaint to whoever will listen. Clearly I can't eat much...but I'm struggling finding food to eat while we are out. My two year old is eating more than me! I caved in this morning and organised an appointment to have some fluid taken out. It worries me that so little food is getting past my lips these days and I don't want to end up malnourished. I need energy to run after the kids.
Speaking of running, I have made a pact with my friend, that 2011 will be the year that we participate in fun runs. Quite a funny concept actually, as only a few short months ago I would never have put fun and run in the same sentence (well a positive sentence anyway!). Maybe start off with a few smaller ones, then take it from there.
To update other issues that I have previously touched on. I still haven't realised that I have lost weight, yes its still odd but honestly I see myself the same way. I had photos recently with my daughter and I looked horrible. Like I hadn't just lost 20kgs or 139cms, I saw it and was disgusted. Can someone please tell me when I will start absorbing the concept into my system?
While I'm being dedicated enough to write on here again, I want to give a massive shout out to Weight Watchers for their brains behind the mini meals. About frickin time!! They are a great size for me and aren't expensive...yay! I wonder if they can influence the restaurants, or any food establishment for that matter, into offering smaller meals. I ordered an entree size pasta recently while out for dinner, I shared my entree with my daughter and yet there was still half a bowl left.....I ordered an ENTREE', hello!!
Anyway, off to bed for me. I have another day of fighting my band to allow food past it, just so I can actually function. I will write again before Christmas if time permits, if not I hope you all have a fantastic Christmas!!
Until next time....
Be Merry....drinking or eating....whatever works!
